Tag: self-discovery


  • Who even am I?

    When redundancy in your 50s kickstarts full life reset mode In autumn 2024 the curtain closed abruptly on my 30 year sales and marketing career. Of course, there was initial shock and disbelief when the redundancy axe dropped on me out of nowhere. There were angry, terrified tears. And – a few days later –…

  • A Week Out From Publication Day

    Reflections on the marathon that is writing & self-publishing a fiction novel As I write, we’re exactly a week away from the arbitrary ‘go live’ date I plugged into Amazon KDP (Kindle Direct Publishing) for my Kindle e-book and paperback women’s fiction / family saga novel. And I have to say…. everything feels a bit…..well, flat. Quiet. Undramatic. It’s…

  • Why has my self-trust abandoned me?

    I’m not sure whether I’ve always been like this, but one thing’s for sure; midlife has brought my struggles with the polar opposites of impulsivity and indecision into sharp focus. I’ve always thought I’m well attuned to intuition, using it as a handy early warning system for life’s more minor challenges; from navigating friendships to which colour jacket to buy. It’s…

  • Learning to Smoke

    The summer of 1988. I am hot and sweaty with exertion from riding my blue racer bike through the tangle of streets on the 1960s housing estate I call home. I zoom past the identikit mass of family homes and come to a sudden jolting stop with a screech of brakes and an audible exhalation…